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rest stop

i'm home right now after being gone for most of the last few weeks of july and getting ready to head to kenya later this week. its been busy busy busy and from the look of my bedroom floor you can tell i've been living out of a suitcase and not taking the time to unpack in a very neat and orderly way.  and i wish i could take a deep breath and breathe for a few days before heading of to africa - but instead my "to-do" list just keeps growing and growing.  and i know when i tell myself, "its ok you'll sleep on the plane" that rest is nowhere near the top of that list.  

but i am longing for rest.  i'm longing for boredom.  i'm longing for the chaos that is my brain right now to be paused so i can gain some sense of (cheap) control.  you know, that was my goal for this summer - to be bored.  i thought i really could pull it off in may.  i looked at my calendar for the summer and saw i had 3 major trips - one right in the beginning, one right in the middle and one right at the end.  and i THOUGHT, that was ALL i would do this summer would be:  go on those 3 trips, hang out with HS girls and sleep in a lot.  HA.  i laugh at myself now for being naive. i know myself better than this.  

and then i was reminded today of what REAL rest is.  and that i can experience rest at any time, anywhere, and that it has pretty much nothing to do with whether or not i've gotten 10 hours of sleep that night or not.  instead, i'm reminded that when i actually take the time to see who i am and then whose i am - that then, and only then, is my heart ever truly at rest.  i like to think that doing nothing and having nothing required of me is what will make my heart feel rested.  and sometimes this is necessary.  but i OFTEN believe the lie that this is all i need to feel recharged.  b/c my problem is that i am often trying to do it all on my own.  I'm trying to save myself and everyone else with no reliance on anyone or thing but myself.  and man is it exhausting.  and yes, i'm learning.  and yes i'm growing, and yes its not always this way, but i really am longing for is the day when i see my need for christ as so important that i'm going to him and his word first before i go into "allie can fix any problem you throw at her on her own" mode.  

because that day will be a very very restfull day.