cold feet

so earlier i was emptying our brand spankin new dishwasher. i get to the bottom rack and start in on the pots and pans. i go to grab for marta's red skillet and then promptly drop it on my right big toe. ouch. it started bruising immediately.

now i'm sitting on the couch working on some school stuff and it occurs to me: i should really put some ice on my toe if i want to walk on it tomorrow. i mean seriously there is already a large bump. a few moments later i think: man, i should really put on some socks, b/c my feet are freezing.

and then it occurs to me. allie, just use your toes as ice. BRILLIANT.

this is why i have a blog....to keep track of all my random thoughts

so lately i've been thinking....

1. when your love language is quality time it takes a whole LOT of effort to love all the people you want to love in your life. well at least to do it well. i wonder if i'll ever get better at managing my time in such a way that allows me to love all the people i want to love well and still have a job, pay my bills, and get my oil changed. too bad my love language isn't gift giving, that seems so much more time-effective.
2. winter break makes me want summer break real bad. actually, winter in general makes me want summer real bad. regardless of whether or not im in school/at work.
3. vacations where you do absolutely nothing and are with a good friend are ideal. seriously, 3 days on the beach with sharon was so needed. last minute trips are also awesome. and being in charge of your own schedule is quite nice.
4. making big life decisions is scary. obviously. deciphering the lords will is also difficult. especially when curve balls get thrown in. are you trying to change my mind here lord or am i supposed to learn that just because something outside of my control changes doesn't mean i came to the wrong conclusion the first time? when no obviously evil seems to come from either decision - which do you choose, especially when the future seems so unpredictable.
5. grading is by far my least favorite part of teaching. i really thought i'd enjoy it more. FALSE. similarly, going back to school to get my masters and writing papers all the time is also unappealing. basically, i just want to be able to interact with people all day and have a secretary keep track of all the details and paperwork. is that so wrong?
6. gods timing really is quite funny. i think i can count at least 8 times in just the last 5 days where i have literally laughed out loud at the way the lord has answered prayers of mine in his own time. and how dissatisfied i was before with him b/c i felt like he wasn't being good to me. oh how silly i can be. yes lord, your timing is good and perfect. point made.
7. i can already tell these next two months are just going to fly by. then its spring break/easter. and thats practically summer. i think i'll be 83 before i feel like my life slows down again.
8. i get so much more accomplished when music is playing. but it has to be headphones. not on my computer speakers. does this mean i have add?
9. i wish it was socially acceptable to cuddle up with a blanket in coffee shops. i almost did it today, but decided against it.
10. i like when god shows me how he has tangibly grown me. it makes me want to keep going. keep pursuing all the hard emotions and hurts - to find healing and fighting for restoration. he really is sweet to do this for me. i need proof - so my head keeps convincing my heart to keep going.

ok thats 10 for 2010. and no, i do not make new years resolutions. this is about as close that you'll get to that from me.